Saturday, August 22, 2009

* you are goodbye*



It seems we're always saying goodbye. I can't believe he was only home for a little over a year before we had to send him back. The kids are having a harder time than I expected. So, of course, Mommy is having a harder time than expected.

Things are slowly finding their way back to normal. Well, as normal as things can be when you send your loved one off to war for a year.

You start counting your "lasts." The last dinner you cook for them. The last time you will pick up their mess. The last time you will wash a load of uniforms. The last time you will fold up their socks. The little things. But, then you close the drawer and try to get on.

It takes some time to find your way, but you always do. Please bear with me while I find mine... and help my children find theirs. You'd think it would get easier after you send them off time and time again. It doesn't.

Thank you for all your kind e-mails and comments. They mean a lot to me, and I will soon find the time to respond to each of them. Take care of you. Hug your loved ones extra-tight. Enjoy your weekend.

xo,
Holly

25 comments:

Melonie said...

Oh Holly....love ya girl. (((HUGS)) to all of you.

Anonymous said...

Hello Holly, You have a beautiful blog, and this post in particular is very touching and I'm sorry you have to say goodbye... My husband and I did all four years of our college long distance, and though we got to see each other in little spurts, it was terribly hard. I can't even imagine how hard it is for you!

My prayers are with your kids and you!!

metrochic said...

i wish i had some comforting words to give you but there are none. this sucks. i hope you all ease into things sooner rather than later and that he stays safe out there. all my love, girl.

Joaniebolognie said...

Hugs to you {{{{Holly}}}}}! I don't know really what to say to ease your burden other than "Thank You" for the sacrafice that your husband makes for our freedom. You and your family are in my prayers.

dani said...

I could NOT do this. You are so strong to go through this - and more than once! I can't even imagine. Seriously, thinking of you.

Mel G said...

Oh Holly, sending you big hugs. We'll all be counting down the days with you till you are together again. Lifting you all up in prayer my friend.

Kelly S. said...

Hi Holly, I just wanted to let you know we are thinking of you and your family.
As a military family the best advice I can give is to keep to your daily routines.
I'm saddened to hear you are having a hard time as well, but it will get better. Keep you head up and hang in there.
Hugs from Germany.

bethchien said...

Hey baby. Just know that I am thinking about you.

Jocelyn said...

Oh Holly....you are sduch a strong woman!!!! How hard this must be....and the children getting older and missing their Dad!!! Please know that I keep you and your family in my prayers each day!!!! Just adore you and you take the time to get things into some kinda routine!!!!! Just adore you girlie!!! {{{{Hugs}}}}

Julie said...

I just can't even imagine!!!
I loved this post though, we all need to be reminded of what we take for granted, thank you for that, hopefully i can enjoy picking up 'his' messes more as I think of you.
Best wishes to you and your little ones!

KhrisW said...

Oh, Holly. I think it sucks too. Keep your chin up. I know it isn't easy.

I'll be thinking of you and call me if you need to talk.

Michelle said...

Lots of hugs and prayers for your family. I hope that things go by quickly for you.

milkcan said...

Sending warm thoughts your way and lots of psychic support. I can't even imagine how difficult it must be for you.

Stephanie Baxter said...

Hugs to you Holly.

Karen said...

keeping your family in my thoughts....i definitely know the feeling. hubby was in the army for 22 years!

LollyChops said...

Holly... I am thinking about you. A ton. Big time squeezers from me to you!

Ronda Palazzari said...

I can't imagine how hard this must be for you & the kids. Lots & lots of love, hug, and support.

Sasha Farina said...

sweetie.. *hugs*.. hang in there. if you need me.. i'm around. okay?

Unknown said...

Wow, that was very sweet. Good luck to you and to your husband. I'll be thinking about you and your fam!

Unknown said...

Holly- God Bless you and your family. I'll pray for your husband's safe return.

Ginajam said...

awwww...that is such a neat photo! thinking of you!

A Soldier Girl said...

Hey how you doing girl .. you aight over there? Checking in on ya .. hope you are doing good boo bear despite all the little things that happen when we leave on these things.

Head up boo bear ..
hugs and kisses

Jennifer B. said...

found your blog through Pink Paislee and I LOVE your work :)

Paige Taylor Evans said...

I can't even imagine. I'm very proud of your husband though. Thinking of you and hoping every day is a little better than the last!

Vel said...

I don't know how you do it. Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us.